So, here I sit, ready to "start" another day. I have a turkey about ready to go into the oven, I have laundry I should finish. I really need to finish my cross stitch project...any of them I have on the go. Must clean the kitty litter, get pack for the weekend of hell. Why is this fairly unusual? I'm a 26 year old "housewife". My husband is 33, works full time, and we transferred here to this town for his job promotion. There's little work here and what is available, quite honestly I'm making more on EI.
He cranks every once in a while about money issues, but when I wrote it all out for him and showed him that we have a "free" $600 a month that he blows on xbox games, lunches and his son, there's not really a whole fuck of a lot he can say. Especially since its been 2 months since I've bought hair dye..and my hair is looking pretty funky. He just bought me a laptop last night for my birthday. it was put on layaway the week of my birthday 4 weeks ago, and we just got to pick it up last night. Yes, an unnecessary expense, but hes insisted on buying my one since last spring when I mentioned I'd start saving for one for myself.
We're newly married, just over 6 months...and its a learning curve. We lived together for a while before we married, but we just passed 2 years together, and neither one of us has had a serious relationship much longer than that in our pasts. When he gets angry, he explodes, has to blame someone..usually me, and then calms down long enough to realize whats hes done...and makes it up somehow. We're going to down to have our usual weekend with his son, my stepson.....an absolutely amazing kid! I love him to bits, and though he hasn't said it to me yet, I know he loves me to. I'm not going to force him to say it, because I never want him to feel I'm trying to take the place of his mom, because I'm not. He has a mom, dad and a step mom. Plus 3 sets of grandparents who adore him. Hes a lucky kid he is!
Visiting with the in laws is stressful, I hate going there. I never feel welcomed, i hate the way they treat my husband, he does everything they ask of him, and they still find something to harp on him about. Nothing is good enough for these people, and I'm quite tired of trying to live up to their standards.
Thats all from me for now, I just realized I'm hungry, and should attempt to eat something.
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