Oh silly person. You make a remark, I say something slightly contradictory, giving you a chance to correct yourself. You repeat your statement, and not until I present you with proof of your wrong, do you back pedal.
Learn all your facts before you open your mouth!!!!!

warning..pissy post

Hubby called his parents to see when they were picking up his son (M) tomorrow. They had a brief conversation, and it wasn't until after he had hung up when Hubby realized Father hadn't even bothered to ask if we were headed down this weekend. On the surface, this is not a big deal. Become involved and you will see it as yet another shrug off towards us. They don't see it has Hubby having every other week visitation, they see it as theirs. They really make us feel unwelcome when we do go down.

I want for us to either be transferred back to the city, or gain custody. Either way, they will see the kid when we decide. Maybe they need to go a few weeks without seeing him to get it. I have never come across a more cold house. More than just the highest set temp of 17. Theres no love in that house. There is no respect, and they undermine hubbys parenting almost everytime. I got over ruled last time I asked M to do something. I got told, "it's my house and you'll do what I say, and I'm asking you to give me a hug". With a smug look thrown at me. I wanted to smash her.

I want for them to be grandparents, not parents. They are refusing to switch roles.

Another day that is at least sunny, although you can feel the storm in the air. As an American friend of a friend stated, theres a snowicane coming. Yup, my new favorite word. I recently dug out some poetry I wrote in high school, and a few pieces are passable, and the others are trash. Inexperienced youth, how you suck.

May be a possible in-law visit this weekend. We can't make it down, so hubby will be extending the invite for them to come up for dinner Sunday, ugh. This will mean most of my Saturday cleaning, scrubbing, laundry and tidying. Yes, I do these things throughout the week, but there's clean, and then there's mother in law clean. Kill yourself doing it, and its never enough. Why try? The challenge I suppose. All in hopes of seeing my stepkid.

Spring is just around the corner. How do I know? Not the weather, but travel plans have begun. I have to go to Halifax in April twice I believe for a friends class. Once to PEI for a meeting in March. Back to Oromocto possibly for a visit, and then Montreal in May for a huge event! Fairly excited for this!

Enough for now.....I should be making supper, the bear gets hungry after work.

Another Monday, another weekend gone. Can't complain about this one though, spent it with friends, chatting, snacking and visiting. Saw my sister inlaws house for the first time, not bad..fair sized, I think I may have seemed like a bitch..but I was just in a rush.

I also agreed to cook for 120 people in November. This is not entirely unheard of for me, I just haven't led the kitchen before, so it'll be interesting.


Short and sweet today, must clean my house...hubby was home all weekend alone........sigh..at least he did dishes once.....

my kitchen.....any kitchen, anywhere with glass bowls and a stove....is where I am most at peace. I'm finally watching the movie "Julie and Julia", I am fascinated. I wish I had the funds to follow a cookbook like this. My biggest weaknesses are kitchen wares and bookstores. I love food, I love baking I love the idea of taking so many individual things and creating magic!

My ever faithful cat Salem, sits by and watches, or perches in the corner and waits until something may be thrown his way, or he can play with something. It brings me happiness when I'm feeling very down about my life. There are a few things keeping me blue, money, unsuccessful pregnancy attempts, worrying over things I cannot control. Usual things I suppose, but when you're left alone most of the day, your mind tends to wander. My mind unfortunately..over thinks...everything.

I'm a bit spastic today, sorry for the choppy writing, whoever may be reading..

the Vday weekend at the inlaws...

head+brick wall=
bang
bang
bang
BANG
BANG



this was my weekend at the inlaws.........
this is usually how we both feel afterwards......


that is all

Introductions

So, here I sit, ready to "start" another day. I have a turkey about ready to go into the oven, I have laundry I should finish. I really need to finish my cross stitch project...any of them I have on the go. Must clean the kitty litter, get pack for the weekend of hell. Why is this fairly unusual? I'm a 26 year old "housewife". My husband is 33, works full time, and we transferred here to this town for his job promotion. There's little work here and what is available, quite honestly I'm making more on EI.

He cranks every once in a while about money issues, but when I wrote it all out for him and showed him that we have a "free" $600 a month that he blows on xbox games, lunches and his son, there's not really a whole fuck of a lot he can say. Especially since its been 2 months since I've bought hair dye..and my hair is looking pretty funky. He just bought me a laptop last night for my birthday. it was put on layaway the week of my birthday 4 weeks ago, and we just got to pick it up last night. Yes, an unnecessary expense, but hes insisted on buying my one since last spring when I mentioned I'd start saving for one for myself.
We're newly married, just over 6 months...and its a learning curve. We lived together for a while before we married, but we just passed 2 years together, and neither one of us has had a serious relationship much longer than that in our pasts. When he gets angry, he explodes, has to blame someone..usually me, and then calms down long enough to realize whats hes done...and makes it up somehow. We're going to down to have our usual weekend with his son, my stepson.....an absolutely amazing kid! I love him to bits, and though he hasn't said it to me yet, I know he loves me to. I'm not going to force him to say it, because I never want him to feel I'm trying to take the place of his mom, because I'm not. He has a mom, dad and a step mom. Plus 3 sets of grandparents who adore him. Hes a lucky kid he is!

Visiting with the in laws is stressful, I hate going there. I never feel welcomed, i hate the way they treat my husband, he does everything they ask of him, and they still find something to harp on him about. Nothing is good enough for these people, and I'm quite tired of trying to live up to their standards.

Thats all from me for now, I just realized I'm hungry, and should attempt to eat something.