I am tired of:
feeling unappreciated
doing the bulk of the housework
dealing with my inlaws
the fucking xbox
the cats having me up at 4am
going to bed alone
getting a pile of repairs at work that "have to be done now"
a supervisor who doesn't do her job, and hence the piles
unwarranted snippiness
bess
people complaining about money, and doing nothing to ease their trouble about it
worrying everytime I hear about something happened in Khandahar/Kabul (where my brother in law is stationed for "7 months"
tackless bitches
fat chicks who dress like stick chicks. Yea, I said it. No one needs to see your muffins top over your child sized mini skirt.
*scream*
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Monday, April 26, 2010
ugh
OK, in quick form.
Sean went downstairs to help his dad put up the clothesline. Sean was already irritated at his parents because they told Mason to take a shower after Sean had already told him to get dressed. "His grandfather and I told him to take a shower, and its our house, so hes going to take a shower'
Sandra asked yet again how come Sean wasn't wearing a hooded sweater she bought for him. He told her he does wear it, its just at home. She barked back with "that sweater cost me $100 and I never see it on you, if you weren't going to wear it why didn't you just tell me to return it!?" Sean repeated his answer and she spouted off thr same spiel, different wording. The raised voices got Mike involved, who then brought up how Sean has a "bad attitude" and "we do so much for you and you do nothing for us", which then brought on " your mother just bought you a $800 computer and this is how you fucking talk to her?" To which Sean replied:
"I know she bought it dad and I just gave her some money back to her yesterday for it, its not like I'm not paying her back"
"Yea well, you can send checks from now on because You're not coming back here with that attitude"
"good enough dad"
Sean went off upstairs to where I was playing with Mason to distract him from the yelling. I gave him about 10 mintues to calm down and then went in and asked him whats up. He asked if we were packed up and when I said yes, he said good because we're leaving. I told him fine, but he had to tell Mason. This was 10 in the morning so he didn't want to lose a whole day with him, so we took him with us. They were not expecting that.
"where are you taking Mason?"
"I'm taking him to get some lunch and a movie, then I will make sure he gets home"
" You can't do that, we picked him up, we're responsible for him!!"
"He's my son, I will make sure he will get home without you"
"so you won't even come back for supper?"
"no mom, I was basically told I wasen't welcome here'
"You're father just lost his temper he didn't mean it"
'yea, but he said it mom.."
"well, are you going to come with us to see you're brother off?"
" I don't know mom"
That caused her to attempt a guilt trip and say how Sean was acting childish and she stormed off.
They called about 5 to see if we were coming for supper.
Now Sean did call her when we were at the gas station to let her say goodbye to Mason, and she asked fairly snotty "so do you need you're father to pick you guys up?" and got a shock when the answer was no, and that we would be taking a bus home.
I am so proud of Sean for standing up to his parents, despite how much it hurt him..we were supposed to have the family dinner to celebrate his birthday on the 1st, but now I doubt they will call. I did manage to get mason to pick out a card ans sign it for his dad, so I do have that for him.
Sean went downstairs to help his dad put up the clothesline. Sean was already irritated at his parents because they told Mason to take a shower after Sean had already told him to get dressed. "His grandfather and I told him to take a shower, and its our house, so hes going to take a shower'
Sandra asked yet again how come Sean wasn't wearing a hooded sweater she bought for him. He told her he does wear it, its just at home. She barked back with "that sweater cost me $100 and I never see it on you, if you weren't going to wear it why didn't you just tell me to return it!?" Sean repeated his answer and she spouted off thr same spiel, different wording. The raised voices got Mike involved, who then brought up how Sean has a "bad attitude" and "we do so much for you and you do nothing for us", which then brought on " your mother just bought you a $800 computer and this is how you fucking talk to her?" To which Sean replied:
"I know she bought it dad and I just gave her some money back to her yesterday for it, its not like I'm not paying her back"
"Yea well, you can send checks from now on because You're not coming back here with that attitude"
"good enough dad"
Sean went off upstairs to where I was playing with Mason to distract him from the yelling. I gave him about 10 mintues to calm down and then went in and asked him whats up. He asked if we were packed up and when I said yes, he said good because we're leaving. I told him fine, but he had to tell Mason. This was 10 in the morning so he didn't want to lose a whole day with him, so we took him with us. They were not expecting that.
"where are you taking Mason?"
"I'm taking him to get some lunch and a movie, then I will make sure he gets home"
" You can't do that, we picked him up, we're responsible for him!!"
"He's my son, I will make sure he will get home without you"
"so you won't even come back for supper?"
"no mom, I was basically told I wasen't welcome here'
"You're father just lost his temper he didn't mean it"
'yea, but he said it mom.."
"well, are you going to come with us to see you're brother off?"
" I don't know mom"
That caused her to attempt a guilt trip and say how Sean was acting childish and she stormed off.
They called about 5 to see if we were coming for supper.
Now Sean did call her when we were at the gas station to let her say goodbye to Mason, and she asked fairly snotty "so do you need you're father to pick you guys up?" and got a shock when the answer was no, and that we would be taking a bus home.
I am so proud of Sean for standing up to his parents, despite how much it hurt him..we were supposed to have the family dinner to celebrate his birthday on the 1st, but now I doubt they will call. I did manage to get mason to pick out a card ans sign it for his dad, so I do have that for him.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
I am sick.
My husband has been gone since Sunday night, down to his parents to help his dad.
I'm breaking in a new cat to the family, its not going well.
Its beautiful outside, I have laundry hanging all over my deck, but I'm froze from being sick.
I'm cranky and over tired, which makes me extra emotional.
This March break sucks ass
My husband has been gone since Sunday night, down to his parents to help his dad.
I'm breaking in a new cat to the family, its not going well.
Its beautiful outside, I have laundry hanging all over my deck, but I'm froze from being sick.
I'm cranky and over tired, which makes me extra emotional.
This March break sucks ass
Friday, March 12, 2010
Not a whole hell of a lot going on. Sitting here watching funniest videos with the kid, waiting for our drive to get here, and then hubby to get off work. Gonna spend most of the weekend at moms. I haven't really seen my family since the New year. I hate being far away sometimes. I;m closer to them now than one year ago, but circumstances change..and I see them less, go figure.
Waiting to hear if I'll be PEI bound this month, and if I'll be cooking for 120 in November. Ahh waiting game, how I hate thee.
Waiting to hear if I'll be PEI bound this month, and if I'll be cooking for 120 in November. Ahh waiting game, how I hate thee.
Friday, March 5, 2010
so excited!
A friend of mine on Facebook has been posting random quotes as her status' (statuses?). I finally asked her what they were as they are incredibly intriguing. Turns out they are characters from her writings. She has two complete and different stories on the go. I now have copies of book one of both sitting on my desktop and waiting for advice and opinion.
They are rough, not really edited, but quick scanning to make sure everything downloaded properly made me realize I need to block out a chunk of time to read these. :)
God if the character quotes hook me, what will the books do?
They are rough, not really edited, but quick scanning to make sure everything downloaded properly made me realize I need to block out a chunk of time to read these. :)
God if the character quotes hook me, what will the books do?
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
So blah
I hate this time of year. Gone is the calm, peaceful clean look of the snow. In its place is muck, yellow grass, ugly rain boots, and dirt. I find nothing attractive and welcoming about spring.
It is mother natures menstral cycle. Shedding its water weight, precipitating slush, raining on us her over emotional tears. Teasing everyone with a jacket free day, then snowing the next. She is a PMSing bitch in spring. You cannot please her, and you cannot prepare for what she will throw at you.
People give themselves false hope every day, until we are so scared to declare spring has arrived, that by the time we can all agree that yes, indeed it has arrived, it is almost over and gone. You are a cruel mistress, we will always be enslaved to you somehow. Changing our outfits based on you decisions on weather. melting when we end up over dressed for what you make a summy day. I miss my winter, my snow, it makes everything equal. Spring does not bring tranquility, winter does.
Suffer through you we will, year after muddy year, waiting for summer. After all, do we not wait nine months through pregnancy for the blessing of a child, should you be so lucky?
It is mother natures menstral cycle. Shedding its water weight, precipitating slush, raining on us her over emotional tears. Teasing everyone with a jacket free day, then snowing the next. She is a PMSing bitch in spring. You cannot please her, and you cannot prepare for what she will throw at you.
People give themselves false hope every day, until we are so scared to declare spring has arrived, that by the time we can all agree that yes, indeed it has arrived, it is almost over and gone. You are a cruel mistress, we will always be enslaved to you somehow. Changing our outfits based on you decisions on weather. melting when we end up over dressed for what you make a summy day. I miss my winter, my snow, it makes everything equal. Spring does not bring tranquility, winter does.
Suffer through you we will, year after muddy year, waiting for summer. After all, do we not wait nine months through pregnancy for the blessing of a child, should you be so lucky?
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
depressed
have to "say" it..
I really wish he would listen and try to understand what I tell him.
You really shouldn't get pissed when I don't tell you whats bothering me, as you will just fluff it off. Then you can't act surprised if we fight over said issue.
we're fine, just no space here.
I really wish he would listen and try to understand what I tell him.
You really shouldn't get pissed when I don't tell you whats bothering me, as you will just fluff it off. Then you can't act surprised if we fight over said issue.
we're fine, just no space here.
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Friday, February 26, 2010
warning..pissy post
Hubby called his parents to see when they were picking up his son (M) tomorrow. They had a brief conversation, and it wasn't until after he had hung up when Hubby realized Father hadn't even bothered to ask if we were headed down this weekend. On the surface, this is not a big deal. Become involved and you will see it as yet another shrug off towards us. They don't see it has Hubby having every other week visitation, they see it as theirs. They really make us feel unwelcome when we do go down.
I want for us to either be transferred back to the city, or gain custody. Either way, they will see the kid when we decide. Maybe they need to go a few weeks without seeing him to get it. I have never come across a more cold house. More than just the highest set temp of 17. Theres no love in that house. There is no respect, and they undermine hubbys parenting almost everytime. I got over ruled last time I asked M to do something. I got told, "it's my house and you'll do what I say, and I'm asking you to give me a hug". With a smug look thrown at me. I wanted to smash her.
I want for them to be grandparents, not parents. They are refusing to switch roles.
I want for us to either be transferred back to the city, or gain custody. Either way, they will see the kid when we decide. Maybe they need to go a few weeks without seeing him to get it. I have never come across a more cold house. More than just the highest set temp of 17. Theres no love in that house. There is no respect, and they undermine hubbys parenting almost everytime. I got over ruled last time I asked M to do something. I got told, "it's my house and you'll do what I say, and I'm asking you to give me a hug". With a smug look thrown at me. I wanted to smash her.
I want for them to be grandparents, not parents. They are refusing to switch roles.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Another day that is at least sunny, although you can feel the storm in the air. As an American friend of a friend stated, theres a snowicane coming. Yup, my new favorite word. I recently dug out some poetry I wrote in high school, and a few pieces are passable, and the others are trash. Inexperienced youth, how you suck.
May be a possible in-law visit this weekend. We can't make it down, so hubby will be extending the invite for them to come up for dinner Sunday, ugh. This will mean most of my Saturday cleaning, scrubbing, laundry and tidying. Yes, I do these things throughout the week, but there's clean, and then there's mother in law clean. Kill yourself doing it, and its never enough. Why try? The challenge I suppose. All in hopes of seeing my stepkid.
Spring is just around the corner. How do I know? Not the weather, but travel plans have begun. I have to go to Halifax in April twice I believe for a friends class. Once to PEI for a meeting in March. Back to Oromocto possibly for a visit, and then Montreal in May for a huge event! Fairly excited for this!
Enough for now.....I should be making supper, the bear gets hungry after work.
May be a possible in-law visit this weekend. We can't make it down, so hubby will be extending the invite for them to come up for dinner Sunday, ugh. This will mean most of my Saturday cleaning, scrubbing, laundry and tidying. Yes, I do these things throughout the week, but there's clean, and then there's mother in law clean. Kill yourself doing it, and its never enough. Why try? The challenge I suppose. All in hopes of seeing my stepkid.
Spring is just around the corner. How do I know? Not the weather, but travel plans have begun. I have to go to Halifax in April twice I believe for a friends class. Once to PEI for a meeting in March. Back to Oromocto possibly for a visit, and then Montreal in May for a huge event! Fairly excited for this!
Enough for now.....I should be making supper, the bear gets hungry after work.
Monday, February 22, 2010
Another Monday, another weekend gone. Can't complain about this one though, spent it with friends, chatting, snacking and visiting. Saw my sister inlaws house for the first time, not bad..fair sized, I think I may have seemed like a bitch..but I was just in a rush.
I also agreed to cook for 120 people in November. This is not entirely unheard of for me, I just haven't led the kitchen before, so it'll be interesting.
Short and sweet today, must clean my house...hubby was home all weekend alone........sigh..at least he did dishes once.....
I also agreed to cook for 120 people in November. This is not entirely unheard of for me, I just haven't led the kitchen before, so it'll be interesting.
Short and sweet today, must clean my house...hubby was home all weekend alone........sigh..at least he did dishes once.....
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
my kitchen.....any kitchen, anywhere with glass bowls and a stove....is where I am most at peace. I'm finally watching the movie "Julie and Julia", I am fascinated. I wish I had the funds to follow a cookbook like this. My biggest weaknesses are kitchen wares and bookstores. I love food, I love baking I love the idea of taking so many individual things and creating magic!
My ever faithful cat Salem, sits by and watches, or perches in the corner and waits until something may be thrown his way, or he can play with something. It brings me happiness when I'm feeling very down about my life. There are a few things keeping me blue, money, unsuccessful pregnancy attempts, worrying over things I cannot control. Usual things I suppose, but when you're left alone most of the day, your mind tends to wander. My mind unfortunately..over thinks...everything.
I'm a bit spastic today, sorry for the choppy writing, whoever may be reading..
My ever faithful cat Salem, sits by and watches, or perches in the corner and waits until something may be thrown his way, or he can play with something. It brings me happiness when I'm feeling very down about my life. There are a few things keeping me blue, money, unsuccessful pregnancy attempts, worrying over things I cannot control. Usual things I suppose, but when you're left alone most of the day, your mind tends to wander. My mind unfortunately..over thinks...everything.
I'm a bit spastic today, sorry for the choppy writing, whoever may be reading..
Sunday, February 14, 2010
the Vday weekend at the inlaws...
head+brick wall=
bang
bang
bang
BANG
BANG
this was my weekend at the inlaws.........
this is usually how we both feel afterwards......
that is all
bang
bang
bang
BANG
BANG
this was my weekend at the inlaws.........
this is usually how we both feel afterwards......
that is all
Friday, February 12, 2010
Introductions
So, here I sit, ready to "start" another day. I have a turkey about ready to go into the oven, I have laundry I should finish. I really need to finish my cross stitch project...any of them I have on the go. Must clean the kitty litter, get pack for the weekend of hell. Why is this fairly unusual? I'm a 26 year old "housewife". My husband is 33, works full time, and we transferred here to this town for his job promotion. There's little work here and what is available, quite honestly I'm making more on EI.
He cranks every once in a while about money issues, but when I wrote it all out for him and showed him that we have a "free" $600 a month that he blows on xbox games, lunches and his son, there's not really a whole fuck of a lot he can say. Especially since its been 2 months since I've bought hair dye..and my hair is looking pretty funky. He just bought me a laptop last night for my birthday. it was put on layaway the week of my birthday 4 weeks ago, and we just got to pick it up last night. Yes, an unnecessary expense, but hes insisted on buying my one since last spring when I mentioned I'd start saving for one for myself.
We're newly married, just over 6 months...and its a learning curve. We lived together for a while before we married, but we just passed 2 years together, and neither one of us has had a serious relationship much longer than that in our pasts. When he gets angry, he explodes, has to blame someone..usually me, and then calms down long enough to realize whats hes done...and makes it up somehow. We're going to down to have our usual weekend with his son, my stepson.....an absolutely amazing kid! I love him to bits, and though he hasn't said it to me yet, I know he loves me to. I'm not going to force him to say it, because I never want him to feel I'm trying to take the place of his mom, because I'm not. He has a mom, dad and a step mom. Plus 3 sets of grandparents who adore him. Hes a lucky kid he is!
Visiting with the in laws is stressful, I hate going there. I never feel welcomed, i hate the way they treat my husband, he does everything they ask of him, and they still find something to harp on him about. Nothing is good enough for these people, and I'm quite tired of trying to live up to their standards.
Thats all from me for now, I just realized I'm hungry, and should attempt to eat something.
He cranks every once in a while about money issues, but when I wrote it all out for him and showed him that we have a "free" $600 a month that he blows on xbox games, lunches and his son, there's not really a whole fuck of a lot he can say. Especially since its been 2 months since I've bought hair dye..and my hair is looking pretty funky. He just bought me a laptop last night for my birthday. it was put on layaway the week of my birthday 4 weeks ago, and we just got to pick it up last night. Yes, an unnecessary expense, but hes insisted on buying my one since last spring when I mentioned I'd start saving for one for myself.
We're newly married, just over 6 months...and its a learning curve. We lived together for a while before we married, but we just passed 2 years together, and neither one of us has had a serious relationship much longer than that in our pasts. When he gets angry, he explodes, has to blame someone..usually me, and then calms down long enough to realize whats hes done...and makes it up somehow. We're going to down to have our usual weekend with his son, my stepson.....an absolutely amazing kid! I love him to bits, and though he hasn't said it to me yet, I know he loves me to. I'm not going to force him to say it, because I never want him to feel I'm trying to take the place of his mom, because I'm not. He has a mom, dad and a step mom. Plus 3 sets of grandparents who adore him. Hes a lucky kid he is!
Visiting with the in laws is stressful, I hate going there. I never feel welcomed, i hate the way they treat my husband, he does everything they ask of him, and they still find something to harp on him about. Nothing is good enough for these people, and I'm quite tired of trying to live up to their standards.
Thats all from me for now, I just realized I'm hungry, and should attempt to eat something.
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